what a week! pezza turned SIX on thursday. and we all made it this far alive! there have been some moments along the way where i wasn't sure it would happen! hahhah! in addition i had my very first kids mixed media art class at pezza's school. it is a 6 week after school activity. i have 7 kids in the class including my buddy Amy Sheffer's little boy Gabe - he and pez may have to be separated though. together they get mischievous! my goal is for them to have three completed mixed media pieces they can hang on a wall - class 1 was WILD but we accomplished what i wanted so that's good. and we didn't do too much damage in the art room (though the art teacher was OBVIOUSLY displeased with us being in there :P)
i have an art journal page for y'all today. and guess what - it has JOURNALING on it! i have been working on more doodling and once i was done i felt it needed some wording in the doodles.
i painted the picture with Twinkling H20s. i'd really like to get better at both - the doodling AND the Twinks! I am usually better with the pics of the twinks but there is a fine line between capturing the shimmer and accidentally getting too much glare!
originally i was going to put blocks on the side with the colors i used to paint the picture but then i changed my mind
life has been extremely rough on me lately and i was thinking about it while painting. many of you who follow my blog (or facebook) know i have been having quite a battle with health issues lately. and it's been frustrating - an wide array of issues from annoyances to debilitating headaches to ulcers and a whole lot of pain. my doctor has been NO help - just blows me off. several specialists have gotten to the bottom of a few things but no widespread relief.
and then for other reasons i decided several months ago to stop taking the antidepressant i have been on since after pezza was born. i was tired of feeling numb. it takes away the depression and sadness but it also takes away all other emotions as well. i tapered down slowly, went through the withdrawals and issues with that and i am finally OFF. guess what. EVERY single health issue i was having - large and small - GONE. just gone. things i would have NEVER connected to it. how could my doctor have missed that? isn't that why they are prescriptions - so they can monitor side effects? so that is HUGE good news!
however, it is rough - i have battled depression, HUGE depression problems since i was a kid. and the adjustment to being off the meds is tough. My coping skills are lacking. so i have been thinking alot about how to get myself into a better place. i do feel, in some ways, like i am coming out of a fog. i am working on being kind to myself - it's hard. and on who i am. and i was reminded of something a very smart woman told me once. at the time she was talking about relationships but i am realizing it is applicable to more than that. and simple - but not. i just need to BE what i admire and perhaps i will begin to feel better. instead of spending my time being/doing nothing and beating myself up for it. not helpful at all! or perhaps i am having a mid-life crisis? i look in the mirror and it's like - wow! who the heck is that old person? maybe it's the fog of being home with a pre-schooler i am coming out of!
so that is my long ramble for today! we are having a birthday party for pezza tomorrow - just a couple close friends and some of hubby's family. i hope you all have a wonderful weekend!